This song is awesome! Found it while watching a series called Chuck!!! :P
Check this out, Creator by Santogold :P
Check this out, Creator by Santogold :P
Who To Blame?
I feel lost. And who to blame? I know, I should explore everything while I lost, to clear up the mind and find the safe platform to land on. I feel uncertain. Unsafe.
I feel lost. Who to blame? My self.
I feel lost. Who to blame? My self.
Where Is The Freedom To Speak Up?
Lately, people have been contacting and asking me to remove few post made by me a few months back. They even threaten to sue me if I disagree to do so. I am wondering, as a Malaysian, where is our freedom to speak up for our self?
I know, I talk negative about them, but why is it a must for them to ask for me to remove the post,and will sue me if I disagree? Can't the take it as a lesson for them to go better. If their services are good, people will blog positively about them, and no one will take the negative things.
Especially when it comes to blogging life, we can see how many bloggers are being sued for what they mentioned in their posts which I think it's their rights to say so. It is the word for you to learn to be a better organization, not simply to degrade you.
I'm still wondering. Where is the freedom to speak up here, in Malaysia.
I know, I talk negative about them, but why is it a must for them to ask for me to remove the post,and will sue me if I disagree? Can't the take it as a lesson for them to go better. If their services are good, people will blog positively about them, and no one will take the negative things.
Especially when it comes to blogging life, we can see how many bloggers are being sued for what they mentioned in their posts which I think it's their rights to say so. It is the word for you to learn to be a better organization, not simply to degrade you.
I'm still wondering. Where is the freedom to speak up here, in Malaysia.
Sometimes, I Need Some Entertainments
Apart all the problems I have currently, I managed to go karaoke this evening alone. Yeah, alone because my friends were all working and I'm the only one is on leave today. I thought by doing such as karaoke-ing I could entertain myself, but I was wrong. I could say, I entered Suria Box room number 12 with no mood at all. I chose few songs but most of the time I just saw and read the lyrics at the bottom. I switched off the microphone and let the singer sang it for me.
I tried to sing it myself, but the fun was not there with me. I was so alone and I felt terrible that I wasted RM15 for the karaoke session. I have no other plans so I continued singing or should I say listened to the songs.
Now I believe, when you badly want something, and you have not get it yet, you will have no mood to do other things, but to only get the thing that you want. That's what is happening to me at the moment. I want to tell the people around me, but I bet it will never be worth it because I know no ones could help me out.
If I have the car, I would drive very fast on the highway. If I could shout, I would want to shout until my throat feels the pain. I just don't know how to express it at the moment. The feeling that I feel at the moment is very torturing up my mind. I just don't know.... Don't know...
I tried to sing it myself, but the fun was not there with me. I was so alone and I felt terrible that I wasted RM15 for the karaoke session. I have no other plans so I continued singing or should I say listened to the songs.
Now I believe, when you badly want something, and you have not get it yet, you will have no mood to do other things, but to only get the thing that you want. That's what is happening to me at the moment. I want to tell the people around me, but I bet it will never be worth it because I know no ones could help me out.
If I have the car, I would drive very fast on the highway. If I could shout, I would want to shout until my throat feels the pain. I just don't know how to express it at the moment. The feeling that I feel at the moment is very torturing up my mind. I just don't know.... Don't know...
You're The One I Love
I have been listening to Michael Learns To Rock songs, because it fills me heart everyday. Whenever I'm free, or even while doing some works, I'll be singing the songs of Michael Learns To Rock. But the one I love the most will be Blue Night. It's awesome! Can someone please sing it to me? Weeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! The lyric, ouch! Awesome! The music? weee! Awesome! I love Blue Night so much. I will be installing LimeWire or something so that it's easy for me to download songs I want :)
Enjoy this readers... I love you all...
Enjoy this readers... I love you all...
Being a Doctor: No Life
I have this doctor, and he is the one who always wants me to monitor all of his patients as if I'm the staff there. Whenever I am in charge of his cubicle, he will never want to see me away from the patients. He wants me to be there all the time and monitor the patients.
Today, he told me wants to quit. I was shocked. Two doctors including him told me the same thing today. Doctor Hagrid, the one I mentioned in my previous post, will give himself sometimes till August, and if he cant' take it, he wants to continue his resignation.
But this evening before I went home, the another doctor told me the same thing that he wants to quit and continue with his parents' business. I did ask the doctor when was the last time he slept? He said, it was maybe a week ago when he last slept since he had to work, and finish their assignments.
He told me that he was so sleepy and needed some rest, but he couldn't sleep in the ward with such situations. He suggested me to pour some very hot water to his arms so that he can take MC. I was very darn shocked.
So later after that, while I was doing my work without the doctor next to me, I said to myself, how I want to get the MC? And somehow, few ideas came to mind. It's very desperate you know. I can't have any leaves, because I will have to replace it later. Though I am very sick, I will force myself to go to work, so that I won't need to replace any.
I'm just tired. I'm not only tired with my work. But everything around me makes me tired. And somehow I fed up with it. At times, I feel like I just don't care anymore. It hurts, really hurt. But all I knew is, shut up. And let it be in yourself. Because when you speak, no one can help. They can help, but I can't bear with the consequences. Yes, I am mentally and emotionally tortured.
Today, he told me wants to quit. I was shocked. Two doctors including him told me the same thing today. Doctor Hagrid, the one I mentioned in my previous post, will give himself sometimes till August, and if he cant' take it, he wants to continue his resignation.
But this evening before I went home, the another doctor told me the same thing that he wants to quit and continue with his parents' business. I did ask the doctor when was the last time he slept? He said, it was maybe a week ago when he last slept since he had to work, and finish their assignments.
He told me that he was so sleepy and needed some rest, but he couldn't sleep in the ward with such situations. He suggested me to pour some very hot water to his arms so that he can take MC. I was very darn shocked.
So later after that, while I was doing my work without the doctor next to me, I said to myself, how I want to get the MC? And somehow, few ideas came to mind. It's very desperate you know. I can't have any leaves, because I will have to replace it later. Though I am very sick, I will force myself to go to work, so that I won't need to replace any.
I'm just tired. I'm not only tired with my work. But everything around me makes me tired. And somehow I fed up with it. At times, I feel like I just don't care anymore. It hurts, really hurt. But all I knew is, shut up. And let it be in yourself. Because when you speak, no one can help. They can help, but I can't bear with the consequences. Yes, I am mentally and emotionally tortured.
What Makes Me Laugh And Smile?
You know sometimes I have this weird thing to do. Which is to call him while he is teaching, sleeping or maybe while he is doing something with his friends. For me it is not weird because I love doing it. Since I can call him for free, and that I believe I must fully utilize it to the max!
Have you listened to a song called "I've Just Called To Say I Love You" by Stevie Wonder. I love that song so much because it represents me sometimes. Although I rarely say "I love you" to him, but I guess he knows it why I call during certain times.
Listening to him while I'm stress can actually reduce my burdens. He knows how to make me laugh, smile and even cry. Why cry? Sometimes I miss him so much, and when he makes me happy, it makes me want to be next to him, being tightly hugged and calm down in every situations I'm facing.
Yesterday I went post hoping in this AMIEYMISME. I laughed and smiled alone reading all of his comments. I missed that. Now, he keeps on commenting in a serious sound. No fun? Yes, no more fun. I missed all those comments in my old blog posts.
Anyway, we want our voices to be heard right? Let's do it this way. To all Sarawakians, kindly join up on Facebook polls or Twitter with hashtag #swkwish to voice out your wish to see Sarawak moves forward. You can put whatever wish you want it to be granted by the government for Sarawak. For instance, better transportation, better electricity or even better highways and roads. More info, read it here :)
Have you listened to a song called "I've Just Called To Say I Love You" by Stevie Wonder. I love that song so much because it represents me sometimes. Although I rarely say "I love you" to him, but I guess he knows it why I call during certain times.
Listening to him while I'm stress can actually reduce my burdens. He knows how to make me laugh, smile and even cry. Why cry? Sometimes I miss him so much, and when he makes me happy, it makes me want to be next to him, being tightly hugged and calm down in every situations I'm facing.
Yesterday I went post hoping in this AMIEYMISME. I laughed and smiled alone reading all of his comments. I missed that. Now, he keeps on commenting in a serious sound. No fun? Yes, no more fun. I missed all those comments in my old blog posts.
Anyway, we want our voices to be heard right? Let's do it this way. To all Sarawakians, kindly join up on Facebook polls or Twitter with hashtag #swkwish to voice out your wish to see Sarawak moves forward. You can put whatever wish you want it to be granted by the government for Sarawak. For instance, better transportation, better electricity or even better highways and roads. More info, read it here :)
The Losing Loser?
I lost my ring. Yeah. I just realized it today and I couldn't find it at all. Congrats to myself for being so careless. I'm a loser? No. The ring is a loser for losing itself from me. :P
Some people say, it's just a ring. I know it's only the ring. But for me, it's important. And it signifies something valuable to me (my relationship is something valuable, very valuable for me). No matter how cheap is the ring, how ugly does it looks, but it's still a ring from someone to me.
Some people easily take off their rings, and some even don't care to wear it on. I wonder why? It's simple. As a girlfriend, you want your boyfriend to wear his ring so that everyone knows that he's taken and no more single. But nah... erm... yeah... You want it so bad, but it's always forgotten and not being granted, it's better to forget it. It will somehow hurt yourself.
I do that to my boyfriend. Have asked him a lot of time to wear his ring on, he seems to ignore my simple wish, and forget to use it like ALWAYS (if you ask him where is the ring now, he maybe does not know where it is). So now, I just keep quiet about it, and let him be. Yeah, it does make me hurt. A simple wish not being granted.
If he reads this, I'm sorry. It's the truth about you. But never mind. I don't want to force you to wear the ring on.
Good bye to my ring. I hope I will find you someday in this room. :(
Some people say, it's just a ring. I know it's only the ring. But for me, it's important. And it signifies something valuable to me (my relationship is something valuable, very valuable for me). No matter how cheap is the ring, how ugly does it looks, but it's still a ring from someone to me.
Some people easily take off their rings, and some even don't care to wear it on. I wonder why? It's simple. As a girlfriend, you want your boyfriend to wear his ring so that everyone knows that he's taken and no more single. But nah... erm... yeah... You want it so bad, but it's always forgotten and not being granted, it's better to forget it. It will somehow hurt yourself.
I do that to my boyfriend. Have asked him a lot of time to wear his ring on, he seems to ignore my simple wish, and forget to use it like ALWAYS (if you ask him where is the ring now, he maybe does not know where it is). So now, I just keep quiet about it, and let him be. Yeah, it does make me hurt. A simple wish not being granted.
If he reads this, I'm sorry. It's the truth about you. But never mind. I don't want to force you to wear the ring on.
Good bye to my ring. I hope I will find you someday in this room. :(
Call Me Exhausted!
I've been working straight a week with no holiday or a leave because last week I requested for a 3 days of leave to attend the Tomorrow's Leaders Summit. So now I have to be strong not to ask for any more leave for anything. I miss home.....
Sometimes, working is always fun, but the fun ends when you work with someone very calculative enough. She can asks you to do so many things but when you ask her for something she would say that she is doing some works, but she's only sitting and standing around doing nothing.
And working is always fun but it's no more fun when everyday, you have to go to the police station and lodge a report over you patient went missing; Yeah, it's no fun! Apart from that, patient who disorientated or maybe mentally ill. I hardly control them.
While doing some procedures to other patients, turn and look around, see another patient has gone naked with the drip being pulled off by himself. And what's more? The blood all over his body. Next? Help him to sit on the wheel chair, and bring him to the bath room to be bathed.
I'm just very tired this few days. Typing this while the nose is running. Eyh? yeah.. running nose... Am having flu at the moment. I guess I need to see Doctor Hagrid (a doctor in my ward, but this is not his real name :P) this coming Monday and ask him to prescribe me Actifed. I need it!
Sometimes, working is always fun, but the fun ends when you work with someone very calculative enough. She can asks you to do so many things but when you ask her for something she would say that she is doing some works, but she's only sitting and standing around doing nothing.
And working is always fun but it's no more fun when everyday, you have to go to the police station and lodge a report over you patient went missing; Yeah, it's no fun! Apart from that, patient who disorientated or maybe mentally ill. I hardly control them.
While doing some procedures to other patients, turn and look around, see another patient has gone naked with the drip being pulled off by himself. And what's more? The blood all over his body. Next? Help him to sit on the wheel chair, and bring him to the bath room to be bathed.
I'm just very tired this few days. Typing this while the nose is running. Eyh? yeah.. running nose... Am having flu at the moment. I guess I need to see Doctor Hagrid (a doctor in my ward, but this is not his real name :P) this coming Monday and ask him to prescribe me Actifed. I need it!
Missing You Is A Great Feeling
*knock knock* Ehem... I know I have ignored this blog for quite sometimes, but I still love this blog. I have decided to write all my personal stuff here rather than sharing it in my personal [dot]com blog.
I have been advised to filter what should I blog on, but I guess I will never make it because for me, what I blog is what I want to share with people. I filter everything before I start to think about blogging it. Yeah, I keep my personal "belongings" in this AMIEYMISME because I believe it will be fun this way.
How many of you have known that I moved to Selangor? Yeah, I'm in Selangor to further my studies in health profession. It was a sudden move for me and it took me almost six months to adapt myself to the surrounding. I was badly homesick.
Although I have been living here for more than a year, those homesick feelings always come to conquer me. I want to go back so darn bad. And I wish Kuching is just a stone throw away from this place. And I wish AirAsia, Malaysia Airlines and Fireflyz will always offer good price so that I can go home.
Last few weeks, Garfield (I call my boyfriend this name) came here and we spent like three days together. I was overjoyed to see him. Thank god during that Friday I was on divided shift that ended at 2pm, which usually end up at 4pm. Thank God!
So we met up at KL Central, and you know how I felt? I felt like my heart has melt to see him coming nearer and nearer. The moment became so sweet when he kissed my forehead before we move to the hotel. It was a blissful moment to see he came to me and be around me. Though it was only like three days.
During the stays, we managed to go to few places like Sungai Wang, Low Yat Plaza, Times Square, Midvalley and so. We even went to watch Drive Angry at Times Square. Both agreed that the movie was dissatisfying. I was actually frustrated with Drive Angry because all these while I watched every Nicolas Cage movies and for me it's always awesome. But this time, Drive Angry is just so boring.
My Garfield and I managed to meet up with a friend and he brought us to dinner somewhere, erm... on earth! Hehe While eating, I realized, I am very fussy about food. Our friend even noticed it. LOL It's not that I fussy, but I can't simply take any food. I have allergies and gastric. So to avoid all these pain to ruin my happy moments with Garfield, I have decided not to take those spicy and seafood food.
The saddest part will be, when I sent him to the airport. We took SkyBus to LCCT and I was so glad that his flight was a bit delayed, so at least I could spend some more time with him. Haha! I remember, he was sleeping next to me with his hand held my hand. I put my head on his shoulder and pretended sleeping, but I was only looking at his face. Then I looked away and started to cry. Yeah, I cried but I didn't want him to hear it. I successfully cried without him noticing it.
It is always the sad thing to leave him behind whenever I have to fly over to KL from Kuching. And it's always the sad thing to be left out alone here, while he's in Kuching. I always hope that he will come to visit me again later. Because I know, he is the only person who can make me smiles to ear.
He's the only one who can make me laugh. Who can calm me down when I'm stressed. I know sometime our relationship goes a bit shaky, but I guess, no relationship has ever come across no arguments. Missing him is a great feeling, and it will be showered by our sweet moments together. :)
